What a Suck Hole

This blog is beginning to be less about my adventures in Los Angeles and more about my annoyances with this damn city. I think this place is providing a perfect storm of things that drive me insane and compacted them into my first couple months of living here. All the things that should be really cool about Los Angeles aren't and I feel like I'm at war at home and in the office. With the help of a lawyer friend (you know who you are) I'm currently trying to get out of my lease/ out of my apartment.

But what are the highlights of my life here?

Well Chris is the biggest and best one. When he is home he's the official bug killer and he can make me laugh even when I'm feeling like my brain is going to leak out of it's ears. You know you're with someone good when they watch fall completely apart and all they want to do is put you back together again. It's nice to have him by my side while I'm trying to figure this "life" out. I know that if we're together (yeah it's about to be a lame but completely true sentiment) I'll be alright.

My coworker Joey is another. My job consists of dealing with a broken down system that has people either unable to do their job or are unwilling to. The clients I serve can be amazing but can also be rude and lazy and all I want to do is scream at them "if you won't help yourself why should I help you?" I think AmeriCorps is supposed to be about working for nothing and loving it anyway. At least at City Year there were some amazing people and some awesome kids. Here it's just adults grasping at last straws. I was lucky enough to get paired with a random Midwesterner who shares my views on this job as well as being RIDICULOUS when we can be. We're surrounded by the crazy LAers and we have to be fight the sucking void by making fun of our lives.

The mountains. Really they are pretty amazing. From my strange half cubicle I can see them outside my coworkers office and they remind me of the good stuff California has to offer that Illinois doesn't. There are palm trees and I haven't had to worry about a winter jacket yet. And I think it's funny that all of Los Angeles' decorations have a semblance of snow or winter. I think it's ridiculous.

I know that I should have moved out here and forced myself from the wonderful womb of Chicago. I just wish that I wasn't battling everything on top of being homesick.